A Much-Needed Breather in Kota Kinabalu – My Debut as a DJ
I have been battling demons these past 2 months. While my career is about to take off, my personal life is enduring a rollercoaster downfall and I’m stuck in the front seat, fearing for what may come.
I’ve always been a music lover from unearthing new songs, writing/composing songs (current rut of 5 years) and my new hobby, DJ-ing. As I recently celebrated my birthday in a “non-traditional” way – guys only, I contemplated getting away from my home which I’ve been feeling like a stranger, to either Langkawi or Kota Kinabalu.
I chose the latter, because I know I won’t be alone, and with my cousin agreeing to accompany me, the decision was an easy one despite the cost incurred – my most expensive KK trip, but it was worth it.
My most memorable moment was when I debuted as a DJ at First Beach Cafe Tanjung Aru, and spinned 4 sets for a total of 2 hours. I started off nervously, sweating my tits off and hands as cold as zombie but ended the night removed off all inhibitions thanks to alcohol.
I made some new friends in the form of the live band, and one person thought I was actually a DJ in KL! I had my moments where the public positively responded so that further elevated my confidence. This is just the beginning as I intend to make this regular hobby whenever I visit KK, next trip, tentative in May for Kaamatan.
Until then, I have a song to write as I’m having a sudden splurge of lyrical inspiration – and for the first time, it’ll be about me and my feelings. The challenge is the melody and with my last composition was 5 years ago, I’m really rusty. Time to dust off my guitar and get to work.
To my handful of friends who came to see me, thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have seen me at my lowest moment despite me being guarded and I found myself again after 5 nights. The stranger I now see in the mirror is recognizable.
I’ll see you soon kio?
P/S: I had Tarap on the very last day in KK!
Hope all is alright with you. Every once in a while we have our lowest point. I had a good advice some time back, Persevere. Cheers
Thanks. And Jon Bon Jovi’s new song came out at an opportune time for me. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C0NO89Z3YSQ
To be frank, it’s time for a change, it’s time to be me again, which I’ve been playing catchup for many years now.
We are all lost people, more so for a new mother like me, I am a mother ONLY these days, but it is a phase we all go through. Again persevere. God has a plan for us. I found some inspiration recently from your fellow blogger fren Fridaycat, about sometimes surrendering your fate to god. Wise words.
We make our own fate, we do. It’s in our actions but we think we leave it to God, we don’t. We just use that as a reasoning to justify what we’re doing and going through. There’s no such thing as “fated”. God doesn’t have a plan for us, it’s our plan and our life, God just gave us the heart and brain to make our own decisions and take control of our lives.
Tarap??hmmmm…i would kill for tarap and ‘pulutan’.
so we cannot share tarap sama-sama oh.
Should be enough for share for us two, let’s start a pact and take over the fruit